Over the last few weeks I’ve watched my social media feeds be filled up with photo and video montages of the year that was. What once was only done by companies and big organizations is now available to every who uses social media, with a few clicks of the mouse the year that was is summed up in images and or video. It’s a cool feature, but it relies on you sharing your year with your social networks. It also has the problem that just because you shared it doesn’t mean you want to have it thrown in your face again.
When I saw the first people posting their year in review I went to my Facebook to see what a great year I had, only to be greeted by a disappointing trip through the year in photos. My first thought was how could this be, I mean I post a picture every day, how can that be all that Facebook felt was worth remembering. Of course then it hit me, I don’t share my photos on Facebook, I share them on my blog and share my blog to Facebook. Meaning Facebook doesn’t see my photos, just my posts, and it didn’t include posts in the year in review. Then just a couple of days later my phone buzzed, I had a new Auto awesome, it was Google’s turn to try to sum up my year. So I knew they would do better than Facebook, I use the Google plus images to back up all my photos, so I knew Google had access to a lot of images from the year. And it did a great job, sure it included some images that I wouldn’t want to share publicly, mostly from school trips and birthday parties, but it felt like it did a good job of capturing the year. Last year I took the time to tweak it and created something that I was proud to share, 2013 The Movie.
My little man, each day you are less a boy and more a man. How much you have grown and changed. This has been a summer of new things for you and our family, I love how you embrace each one as they came along. As I look back on it now it seems like it’s been a year of changes. Some of them harder to understand then others, but you got through it. We got through it as a family.
All summer long I have watched you grow up, you are becoming so independent. Until something happens and you want your Daddy (or Mommy). Of course even when you want us, you aren’t always ready to tell us the real reasons. When you fell from the bouncy castle it was hours after you hurt your self that you would admit to us that you were in pain. Insisting even as we were driving to the hospital that your arm was fine. Of course now we know you broke your collar-bone and shoulder.
Tonight after the kids were in bed I decided to sit back and spend some time with Melissa and Enjoys a beer. I usually only do that on Friday but for me, today feels like a Friday, except for having to work tomorrow that is.
Today we have a picture of Jacobs camp certificate. The entire camp was a bit of a surprise. We were just browsing the Microsoft store at Square One when Jacob came running up asking if he could join the camp. Next thing we know he has 2 hours of Microsoft camp for a few days. He loved it, the only disappointing thing is that we didn’t a copy of the movie he created, the service they used to share it was down when his class was wrapping up. I called to see if they could email it to me but the weren’t sure if it was still on the computer he used. I’m still hoping to get it, if I do I’ll share it here.
Last night we had a small water balloon fight, the kids loved it. So today before dinner we filled up another batch of water balloons and the water guns and had at it. The kids loved it and so did I. I had fotgoten how much fun water fights could be. I don’t think that will be our last water fight this summer.
This week was Jacob’s Christmas concert, it’s the first one that Melissa missed. The school did a Nativity play, with kids from different grades all having roles and the classes taking turns signing. It’s always fun to watch the littler kids sing there songs. One of the kindergarten classes did Little drummer boy and though there singing wasn’t perfect the enthusiasm they showed for the drumming was commendable. Usually I would have taken more pictures of the event that I could have shared, but with out Melissa being there I really wanted to make sure I captured Jacob’s performance on video.
Last night on my way to bed I stood and watched my little girl sleeping. As I watched her was two thoughts com into my mind, one she doesn’t look herself without her hair and to how precious she is to me. As I stood there I heard her little snores and was reminded about Monday, surgery day. The day they take away her snores.
I am not sure how much of it she understands, all I am sure of is that she is scared, she said to me the other day that she likes her snores and doesn’t want them to be taken away. She was also somewhat shy and withdrawn during our tour on Wednesday when the nurses were talking about any of the real medical stuff. While was interested in walking around the hospital and enjoyed doing the hair of one of the nurses, but she wouldn’t put on the finger heart rate monitor or the blood pressure cuff. Of course she isn’t the only one who is nervous, and as I right this I’m starting to realize that I’m more nervous then I thought I would be. It’s my job to protect her and on Monday when she goes with the nurses into the operating there will be nothing I can do for her. She will be in the doctors hands. It’s a scary thought. We thought this procedure through when the doctor first suggested it, we know it’s the right thing for my little girl. I know it will work out in the end, but this will probably be the most painful thing she will experience in her young life and I came supposed to just send her to it with a smile on my face?
Today we take Violet to see her ENT doctor for the finial check up before her surgery next month. I have tried to write about the coming surgery on and off all day. I wanted to write about how we decided that this is the right choice for our little girl, about how the thought of her going under general anesthetic for the first time makes me nervous, and how I was dealing with it. Now I’m not sure why I couldn’t find the words, perhaps as I get closer to the day I’ll find the words. Or perhaps I’ll find myself sitting down in the waiting room right a post about it.
What has been going through my mind all day is something Melissa posted on Facebook last night. It seems Kindergarten registration for violet begins in January. It seems so strange that my little first is starting full day kindergarten in less than a year. Her fourth birthday is less than 2 months away. I can’t help but wonder where my baby girl is going. For months she would complain when I call her my Baby girl, of course the complaints disappear when she wants daddy to carry her. Of course then I look at Jacob, who’s all exited by the prospect of having a few friends over for a Video Game party tomorrow while Mommy and Violet are at a baby shower. My baby boy has grown into a big boy.
It’s strange how it goes in spurts, for a while they stay tiny not seeming to grow and then you blink and they are running around, then taking and then they are off to school. Watching Jacob now, it seems to have slowed a bit, but you can see how his tastes are changing. From his love of Mario to his growing love of all thing super hero, still there are days I miss my little baby sleeping in my arms. Of course the one thing as a parent I can’t change is that my kids will grow up, all I can do is be there for them and let them know that I love them with all my heart.
Yesterday Your mother and I went to your school to meet with your teacher and she told us you were doing great in school. That makes your Mom and I very proud Jacob. While I sat there talking to your teacher I couldn’t help but wonder where the time has gone. It feels just like yesterday that we brought you home from the hospital, and now you’re in grade one. With each day as you get older you get more responsibility and I’m impressed how well you handle them. I know at times it can be hard but that’s why you have friends, teachers and parents. We’re her to help yo when it get’s hard.
Watching you play hockey this year is amazing, you are getting so much better with your puck handling. I can’t wait to take you to the Ice Path to practice your skating. Already this year there have been some amazing memories during your hockey games. Moments I will treasure, and I hope you will too. I know that Hockey is something that can be hard for you at times, but it’s when yo keep trying and work at things that are hard that they become easier and you become a better person for going through the work.
Your continued interest in reading is great. When ever I see you sitting there with your head buried in a book, I can’t help but smile. I was so much older than you when I began to understand the wonderful worlds that could be found in a good. To see that you have learned that already makes me proud, I just hope that the Video games and TV shows don’t cause you to forget about the simple fun of reading.
I’ll will end this letter on a last note, you are a great big brother. I watch you with your sister and I can see how much you love her. I see how much you want to protect her. I know there are time’s when being big brother can be tough, and there are times that you don’t want to play with your little sister. Just remember that she looks up to you. You are her big brother, you will always be her big brother. You will always be there for her and she will be there for you. It’s one of the special things about having a sibling. So on the days that she annoys you by wanting to play in your room with you when you just want to be alone. Remember that she wants to play with you because she looks up to you and loves you.
Always remember that I love you and will always be here for you no matter what.